30th June 2008
Lightworker’s Block
I don’t know if anyone else who works in the field of ‘light work’ is experiencing the same feelings as I am, but it feels like I have Writer’s Block – only a million times worse.
My dearest friend, Ben, has just left the shores of Britain for sunnier climes and I miss him dreadfully. I am happy beyond measure that he is Following his Bliss, but it has left a hole in me that feels quite acute right now.
My darling husband, Kim, as ever is supportive and incredibly loving and he knows that my friendship with Ben was one of purity – the fact that Ben had no agenda gave me a healing place in the male/female friendship-relationship area. What Ben gives is pure friendship and unconditional love. He is a rare gem in the ocean of life, indeed.
However, for a few weeks now, I have been experiencing a kind of loss of something. Ben’s departure has only accented and highlighted this feeling. In the midst of all this, I had some amazing crystal healing from Karen of Karian in Llangollen. She is second to none! For what seemed like months on end, I had been experiencing a daily headache, sometimes so severe, all I could do was sit or lie down. It felt as if my energy was being drained – like a water leak or an electricity grid drain. I sought Karen’s help, and since the first session, I have not experienced one headache. I feel so free and so grateful for her help.
If I could describe my state of being right now, I would say it feels like I’ve shifted somehow, to another plane of existence. I guess it’s like moving house, and it feels as if I’ve moved house and am not yet oriented with the house or neighbourhood. Everything feels a little ‘klunky’ – even my writing isn’t flowing!
I also feel a little scared and panicky, despite the fact I am sleeping like a baby and I feel physically okay.
I intend to trust the flow of well-being that I have come to know as Source Energy and I know that I am being led to other wonderful things in my life.
Watch this space!
In love and gratitude, Jay xxx
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